Make up some stories

Asalamualaikum.

Well hello dear blog. I don't care who's going to read you as long as I can write what I want here because right now and then I don't have people to talk to so I'm a lonely girl. So I'll write, actually I hate to talk about my problems right now because the problems that I won't mention are just a tiny little problems that I can handle actually. Small problems I make it bigger, ho well women aren't me? Oh any how any way, I love to make up some stories especially before I go to bed. Yeah, what a nasty mind aren't I?

What kind of stories? It depends my dear, look what I've been through all day. For example, today I ate a lot and I had an argue with someone. Well so I'll make up a story before I fall to sleep. This is how it started,

One day there's a little girl living in a cabin with her mother who is very old. She keeps on wondering why her mother is too old til she has to finish all the house chores, she always wanted to enjoy her life as a small lass by playing with dolls and running around the house with her friends. Sadly, every time her friends calling her to go out and play, she'll be like "I'm sorry I can't live my house because my mummy is sick and no one is going to take care of all the house chores." The friends leaving her behind and continuing playing while that poor little girl continuing doing the house chores that will never finish.

Then she cries, her mummy sees her crying while washing dishes that they just ate this morning. The mummy runs to her and hugs her, "Do not cry my baby, I am sorry for always being sick all the time, I promise tomorrow I will be fine and you do not have to take care of me anymore." She pushes her mummy, "You lied to me! Like you always did before, you always said that you will be fine, I am waiting for that moment, the day I can play around with other kids." She runs to her room and slams the door like she always did before. Poor her mummy, the mummy is crying sadly sum up with guilty.

After a few minutes, the little girl gets out from her room crying out loud and hugs her mummy, "Mummy, I am sorry for being rude all the time, I did not mean to hurt your feeling but sometimes my heart is pounding want to go out with other kids but I remained silent because I know I can not leave you alone in here, who is going to cook, to wash, to bath and to love you now. Daddy left us because you are always sick, I can not as cruel as daddy because you are the one who had gave birth to me. I love you mummy, I love you more than daddy loved you before." They both cry, "My baby, you are a good girl, some times I know you are too worried about me, I am okay, you can go out and play with them, I will always be fine here. Just go and have fun, do not worry about me anymore."

"Promise me you will be fine mummy til I get back again?"

"Yes my baby, I promise."

Her mummy kisses her forehead and both of her cheeks. "Just go my dear, have fun out there with other kids. I will be fine here." She runs out happily from the house, while her mummy goes to bed to get some rest.

"What a pain, my head spinning." Look at the clock, it's almost evening. Where did she goes with the friends. Her mummy trying to get up by her self with the dizziness that she feels inside her head. She walks by her self to the kitchen, usually her baby would take her there to fill up her stomach with something. With the dizziness and tiredness that she feels right now makes both of her feet unstable and a bit shuffle til she goes near the sink to grab a cup and a spoon to make a coffee. The floor is wet because of the dishes had been washed by her baby and she forgot to mop the floor. Suddenly, she slips and fall on the floor. Her head bang on the floor and bleeds a bit, she can not open her eyes, a whole of her body can not move. She tries to scream but her throat  in pain but her mouth is moving calling her baby. She loses her voice and, "This is it, goodbye my baby, I love you."

"See you later guys, bye!" It's almost dusk, she forgets that her mummy is waiting for her at home. On her way to go home, she walks happily and certainly forgets about her mummy. "There goes my house, why mummy does not turn on the lights. Maybe she falls asleep."

"I am home! -turns on the lights, goes to her mummy's room- Mummy? Where are you?" She goes to the kitchen and turn on the light. She shocks and recklessly grabs her mummy while crying, "Mummy! Mummy! Wake up! I am sorry for leaving you! I am a bad girl. I am sorry! I am sorry for not taking a good care of you Mummy. Please! Wake up!" She hugs her Mummy and kisses both of her mummy's cheeks.

She gets up and walk away from her mummy, "My head." She hears her mummy's voice and looks back, her mummy struggling to get up. She grabs her mummy's head and hugs her to her chest. "Mummy! I am sorry! Thank God you are fine, I thought you are dead that is why I get up and walk away to go out to get some help from others. Thank God you are okay!." "My baby, did I lie to you?" "No no, you are not if you want to lie all the time next time I do not mind at all as long as you are still with me you can lie as many as you want. I love you mummy." "I love you too my baby."

They both hug each other. Then the girls spend the rest of her life taking care of her mummy till her mummy died. Still she takes a good care o f the house, married and have children with her lovely husband that is better than her daddy. A man who is willing to spend time with her and children, who knows the responsibilities on his family. Now, she teaches her children how to do the house chores no matter either they are boys or girls.

We have to teach our children how to do the house chores since they're young so they'll be independent when they grow up. Like me, my mom taught me how to take care of the house chores since was in standard three, now I can do everything without asking any helps from others. That's the ending of my making up a story. The tittle would be "One day." because one day the girl gets out from the house and one day she trusts her mummy that her mummy will be fine for a day. One day.

Walaikumusalam

Written

Asalamualaikum

Its been a long time I didn't write some poem? Well I don't know either this is some kind of poem or not but I considered it as poems.

The knight

Let the past haunts me
Sins that I have done
Sins that I have made

Let the knight pulls me
Grant me the wishes
Grant me the granted

That I am longing for a long time ago
Being your one and only damsel
In your life

Cruel

Thou are wasting time
on something that is not worth
to waste and to wait

Remember
this world is a dime
on something that is not worth
to play and to aid

That's all for today, thank you.

Walaikumusalam

The selfishness of me

Asalamaualaikum

Am I selfish?

Yes, I am.

Why did you say so me?

Because I always think about my self.

What is it me? Tell me.

It is all about me, I do not know how to respect him.

I am respecting him. Are not I?

I am but sometimes I did not notice that, a small thing that I have done actually causing uncomfortable zone towards him.

Oh I see, so what now?

Here, listen to my story, right now he is mad at me, well actually he is not mad he just needs some time to be alone because I keep on ceggih.

Yeah yeah, I notice about that me.

Me too, but because of the pampering moment last two days had made me comfort with my throne until I forgot that he hates to see me ceggih and maybe he notices that one moment I will be excessively ceggih and suddenly will cause him trouble.

So this is a lesson that he tried to teach me, is not he?

Yes yes, right now I think and think a lot, some times I feel like he does not love me because he can ignore me like he does right now, but when I think and think again, no! He loves me because we talked a lot about future and the way he treated me before, how he taught me about anything, he wants me to be more matured like he said before who is going to take care of house if I keep on ceggih, I must be alert on everything that is important, if it is not important at all just ignore it, so I will be like damn he loves me so much.

Are you sure me?

Yes I am sure! Exactly! He keeps my childhood photo and he keeps on saying that I looked cute with that smile even though everyone hated my smile when I was that kid, he accompanies me to pet shop, willing to drive and brought me home, he always said that I am beautiful, he is patience, trying to understand me, care me a lot but some times he does not and I know it is because he is tired with his assignments, and that showed more than a thing that he loves me a lot.

Well I see, then?

Then some times I always think about my self, yes if you notice I always think about him well actually I think about my self more than him, I will do anything for him to make him always be by my side but you know he is always busy with the assignments, and I keep on bothering him without feeling guilty, I feel the guilt but hmm yeah, I am trying to control it, I mean bugging him but only God knows how hard to control it.

What is the causing of this argument?

Well it is my fault who do not know how to mind my words but that time I was so angry because of some one took a box of water that I am selling on the 9th floor without paying it, I left it not more than half an hour, I am so sad, depressed, frustrated, and angry, then I text him "swine", i did not mean it to him, but he just bye and does not want to talk to me anymore. We just talked about this in our last conversation, "To become a wife and a mother you must to take care from above to the bottom of yours everything, avoid being childish and ceggih". Yeah it is true, I learnt from this lessons, I am sorry, I will not use any harsh words anymore with every one.

Who is fault right now?

Me. 

Well me, so what am I going to do now?

This is what am I doing right now, explanation, this is the explanation that I hope he will understand that iI am sorry for using harsh words, no more harsh words after this, I am so sorry, I know you hate to hear harsh words that get out from my mouth, I was so mad that time, I will be more patience after this, I know you are tired of driving around searching for these stuffs to sell, you are putting so much efforts on this but you can be more patience than me, so why cant I be patience to get through this? I know I can! So I am so sorry.

So the lessons learnt, I know it is my fault, so I think he will consider it.

Walaikumusalam

ALLAH

I'M GETTING WEAK AND WEAKER

Should I wait?

Asalamualaikum.

This is saddening, someone that we love hate us. Disastrous, that feeling is killing me a bit by bit. It's like I can't take this no more but I know he hates to see me weak, he wants me to stay strong. I'm strong, I can push ups crunches and jogs in one time. Haha, crazy Ipah is crazy actually. I don't know what should I do now. I'm sad but I just have to wait until he wants to reach me back. I'm scared that one day he'll leave me like I don't want you anymore just go. Where should I go sunshine? No more sun, well the moon won't be brighten the night anymore.

Talking about the moon, I always look at the moon and wondering does he misses me like I miss him? Doesn't he feels what I feel inside right now? When will you reach me again? Are you waiting for my call? Text? I don't know I just confuzzled right now. I wanted to text you or call you but I guess I'll be disturbing you like you'll hate me again and again, seriously do you hate me? I want to know just don't leave me hanging because we're already engaged. I'm yours and you're mine, we both felt the same I guess, always guessing can make your heart pounding and THIS IS KILLING ME. Aren't this kind of things killing you honey? I hope you miss me like I miss you, how I wish I can see you missing me right now. But like you care, maybe you aren't missing me. Poor Ipah, poor him, poor our life. Safiyah, I don't know either your abah is still with me or not. I don't know either we can still have you in the future or not.

And I don't even know either I'm still in your abah's heart or not. If your abah can't love me anymore, it's okay I'll wait for him until he's ready and come and get me. I can't move on so I'll just wait, I don't care how many bad things you've done to me and I also used to do bad things on you, don't worry I'll be sticking on you forever. I don't want anyone else, I want you only you honey. You always said that I'm crazy, yes I'm crazy on you and I don't care what will people say about me, all I know is you're and you'll always be my sexy chocolate muffin man honey. I'm sorry for everything that I've done, and I haven't occurred yet honey.

WITHOUT THE SUN THE MOON WON'T BRIGHT. If I'm the moon so you'll be the sun that can shine my day. XOXO
(YES I SHOULD WAIT!)

Wasalamualaikum.