Still Faith and Precious

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Okay here we go again another nonsense topic which is 'I don't know what to write to day'
Blurgh boo such an idiot you're lacking of ideas because of staying in the house all day and night no joke I'm Patrick since the first day I arrived which was last week eh last week kut maybe lah I don't know yeah last week

And now I present to you NOTHING hahah seriously I don't know what to say now
Oh yeah I would like to write a short story but a bit lazy right now maybe later
It's about a young father Still has to take care of his one and only daughter Precious because of her wife Faith died in a car accident on her way back from work to pick up Precious from school
It's a long story argument between the two spouses and how Faith had been patience with Still that has a big ego he thinks he's smart and as a man he can do anything that he want but Still loves his wife so much it's just sometimes he can't control his temper towards Faith

I don't know it some kind of stupid short story I guess I'll cry while writing it I can feel it feel the heat the sadness the happiness that Faith going through with Still and the awaiting of Precious into their life
While her pregnancy without Still's knowing it he keep on arguing with Faith but Faith can't fight it back because she loves her husband more than she loves herself
For her Still is everything in her life
But Still still with the attitude that annoyed everyone's around them including his own mom

But after the lost of Faith Still lost his faith and his lovely wife Faith but Faith left him something precious that is Precious their beautiful and lovely daughter that has Faith's eyes and mouth
It makes Still loves Precious more than anything
Faith is gone and Still hoping that Faith will come home again to sit beside him all the time whether in hard and easy time like Faith always did before

Now I'm going to cry :(
Then
Still is still loyal waiting for his wife until his last breath
Actually Still wasn't her everything but Faith was Still's everything he just realized it after the lost of Faith
Precious is the precious thing that Still only has to patch some the missing pieces in his heart

I'm about to cry no joke
Wasalamualaikum

A perfect couple

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A very perfect couple
But already split up because of what I don't know Alex Turner and Alexa Chung

This couple oh my God seriously killing me

Are you kidding me I was jealous of their relationship
Okay first Alex Turner he's charming childish appearance that makes me keep on falling in love with him his rock star personality melting me away while watching his video clips with those messy hair

but now after the split up he changes his personality to more lively man with that Elvis Presly's hair
Still love him

Look at 'Hold on we're going home' covered by him with those dances and appearance OH LORD he's perfect but now he's with another girl I forgot what's her name hahah

For Alexa Chung she's a magnificent one with her styles as a twenty two year old young model
Seriously in love with her too now she looks more lively without Alex Turner by her side maybe I have to make her as my role model in life

She's independent friendly confident in everything her fashion boyish like small girl in a flower dress
Boyish while girly like a little kid seriously she's awesome
With that short messy hair that skinny body with short and long sleeves top yeah kidding me girl
She's beautiful a presenter model and writer
By the way she had launched a book named 'IT' it's all about her I guess and I think I have to buy it heheh
I really want that book her book's cover is simple as simple as she is this is it

She's inspiring me trust me I'm not kidding she's the only western people that I think better than others 

Of course Allah is my Lord God and Rasulallah is His messenger my prophet 

I'm a Muslim I remember that all the time :)

That's all mkbye

Wasalamualaikum

Babies

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Well well look who's here come back to write again again about life while listening to Justin Timberlake's song 'TKO' I thought he was saying 'TKL' hahah and I don't know what is 'TKO' means I just listen to the song as long as it's good to be hear

And now I'm currently in Putrajaya guess what am I doing here well I'm a nanny now taking care of Aisar one of my nephew a toddler three year old one which are love to sing to dance to talk alone to take shower by him self to sleep to eat
Of course that's all he knows as being a children hmm

Actually I don't know there's Unifi here and it's the fastest internet ever I'm glad to have Unifi in this house so I won't feeling lonely by doing nothing here
Okay after taking care of Aisar I think it's fine fo having a baby right now as a student la not for me I'm a student too but not for me to have babies with this young age maybe I won't have a baby at all who's willing to have me as a wife hahah
About him
We're friends now it's okay then and I'm okay too trying to make my self as busy as I can by playing and taking care of Aisar maybe I'll update blog regularly because I don't know what else can I do here hmm
This was me last night

Hahah and to day I'm a bit okay than last night but still have that face though 

My life had been surrounding by babies I guess I've been adapted with this surrounding Insyallah no excuse for not knowing how to take care of babies after married

Because since small Mek taught me how to take care of babies if I'm not mistaken in the early age of eight year old  yeah trust me I'm a good mother like Mek did before

Seriously I don't know why am I keep thinking about babies maybe I'm into it I love  to observe them and try to help theirs' moms to hold them in my arms but I'm afraid to have a soul in my stomach blurgh 

I don't know maybe I should stop thinking about this try to talk about something else 

That's all 

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Awkward

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Old story let it be drafted now you have to finished it.

"Last night was my birthday on 7th November guess what guess what he took me out okay this was for the first time he asked me out yeah this was miracle baby. At first I was on the bus way back here Klang then he kept on asking "what time is it?" I was like "It's almost twelve whats wrong are you going out again tonight?" yeah he said he waited for his friend to make a call to ask him out againnnnnn. So I was just okay with it then he asked "again what time is it?" "Twelve" I anwered.

"Happy Birthday to you"
Bla bla bla he sang me the birthday song I was surprised and quiet until he finished his choir hahah
Then bla bla guess what this was for the first time I had a birthday present from a boy usually my girlfriends gave presents for me thanks guys love you guys"

Okay enough with the story line the moral of this story he loves me I thought he doesn't love me
Sobs sobs sobs I've been appreciated by him sobs sobs sobs for the first time
I was touched
Nah enough with the drama

He gave me this :)

A cute minion's cup cake that he lied to me that he loves minion like I do before my birthday 

Arigato gozaimasu Onizuka Sensei Aishiteru Sensei ;)

Okay that's it

Walaikumusalam

I changed my mind

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Don't say any word seriously I'm bored being in this room for almost two weeks I need to get out from here but actually I just went out last night accompanied my sister bought some of kitchen's stuffs but yeah it's not fair because I can't buy something that I want ceh she gave the permission to buy something I was looking for nestle nestum with oat but tesco didn't provide that drink and I was like whatttt are ya crazy or what because I really need to drink that thing yeah poor me what can I do just nodding like blurgh

By the way I was thinking about to have a spouse after finishing my second month of my degree without his agreement pfft of course he wouldn't have that feeling to have me in my life in his young age pfft again he's not ready and I thought I'm ready to take that responsibilities as wife and student at the same time but after I count think discover observe and every kind of survey asking questioning alone before I go to bed I'm not ready yet seriously I'm not!

Do you know why?

Okay first of course my future husband still a very young man just like me we're at the same age 19 are you crazy a woman 21 years old married to a guy also 21 years old we don't matured enough that time of course he wants to spend more time with his friends and family so do I "WE AS YOUNG PEOPLE PLEASE GET A LIFE ENOUGH WITH YOUR LOVE STORIES" see I'm saying it now this is for the first time I have this feeling towards my self how about towards others of course feel like to throw up
How can he take care of me I mean 'nafkah' food place to stay clothes money to buy me stuffs that I want I can't say bye bye just like that to my want to be stuffs if I have a husband and that's his responsibility to buy me all those things that I wanted?
How about transportation? Public transport til when?
Poor my guy

Second families arch this is the best part in marriage life phew if his mom okay I'm okay but it seems like Momo will not okay with it also Mom I mean Mek like she always said 'nak make belake paghe?'
Hoo no no no this is crazy his sisters brother cousins aunties uncles wan nenek papa uii scary
And me Biwi Abeju another six sisters aunties uncles what will they say about me I'll be theirs' hot topic for back biting but I'll get rewards from it blurgh
NO

Third arch this is it BABIES
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
The most scariest things in life this isn't game this is life after you had them in your life you can't give them back you work for it have fun with it so take a good care of it don't throw them like they're a piece of junk
Make love have sex that's the most happiest things to do in marriage life isn't remember that fun ain't going to be long time after you have the eyes of your marriage in your life yeah get into it take them carefully gracefully
I asked my sister how does it feel to have a baby in your stomach and how about giving birth to them
What did she answer?
"It's the most painful pain that I've ever had"
And I feel like to faint to die to fall on the ground I cried like nooooooo
She said its hard to take wudu' sleep eat too many 'alahan' can't that can't this err seriously 'mengada' and 'menyusahkan' I don't think that he can stand with my attitudes during my pregnancy see how he treats me now? Seriously he can't stand it with that 'mengada'
'sikit sikit nak muntah sikit sikit nak muntah apa awak ni'
AAaaaaaaaaaaaa I'm sorry it's soo 'menyusahkan'
Enough with babies I'm a baby too
With the breast feeding swollen breasts 'period pun aku takleh tahan' damn
Too much money to be use for raising those babies yeah nursery school food milk pampers clothes toys candies ice cream cookies chocolates that stuffs you can share with mama heheh

ENOUGH
I'm dying thinking of this things the most important is I don't think that I'm ready to have my own family with my future spouse because he also not ready yet to take those responsibilities as a young abah so chillex cool and enjoy with your single life a a don't mingle 'berdosa' hahah

So I JUST CHANGED MY MIND TO STAY SINGLE

But maybe if I have my own family I'll teach nurture them with Islam Insyaallah they will be growing up becoming good muslims and muslimahs that can help others to find the guidance the right path to Allah Ya Rab Ya Rahman Ya Rahim My Lord Allah
Amin

Walaikumusalam