Asalamualaikum.
I'm here again with some fake smile that I've made after trying to pursue my self to stay strong and to be patience with whatever happened right now. Mom's sick, he's sick and I'm going to be sick of everything that can make me sick. It's not that I hate you guys, it's just that you guys are scaring me with all those sickening thingy until I keep on thinking how can I help them while all of us are far apart? I want to help especially mom. She refusing me to help her, I want to go home and to see her hug her feel her in my arms, all she wants is me to stay here, I'll stay here quietly and calmly. How about my head? It keeps on spinning around thinking of you mom. I feel weak when I hear about you. You want me to ignore you pretending like there's nothing happen towards you there? NO! Oh mother, how I wish I can take care of you right now. I love you Mek and I miss you, without you I'm nothing.
I don't want to talk about him. I just hate to see him sick, I'm weak, helpless and hopeless when I'm with him. I don't want him to know about this because I hate to see him worrying about this kind of stupid things. So I'll keep everything aside and keep on giving him spirits to stay strong and healthy. I hope you know that I love you so much, I care too much about you. Trying to understand you hoping that you'll get better day by day. XOXO I love you boy.
Walaikumusalam.
