Asalamualaikum
You dont know what Ive been through since I was a little kid til now it was something that I cant tell about I just to keep it and that kind of thing I mean things haunting me til now Im afraid and scared of everything especially losing people that I loved this happened when I was in standard six I was twelve years old at that time dad left us because of heart attack
Many people said that heart attack is one of rich peoples disease its nonsense doesnt make any sense at all Im sorry because my laptops keyboard is not feeling well right now its been a long time ago I always forgot to send her to the hospital but as long as its still can be tap and the alphabets appear on the screen Im not going to send her anywhere
I was too close with dad until everywhere he went I was going to follow him from behind even though he was going out with his friends still I was there to follow him I dont know why but I was his baby girl and what I noticed about this he never mad at me as long as it was not haram thing to do yeah he was a daddy the best daddy Ive ever had and no more another daddy please except papa in law kekeke
I hate to talk about daddy its not that I hate him but later Ill start to dream about him every time I speak about him yes he will come into my dream not tonight tomorrow usually Ill dream about him after talking about him scary not scary but not cool at all so I dont know maybe its because Im a kind of person excessively thinking about something until it appears in my dream
Thats why I hate to have problems especially with people because they make me cant fall asleep *sigh* thats the worst feeling ever having problems with someone friends family boyfriend man its totally killing me so o Lord Allah keep me away from talking bad about others so I dont have to feel guilty in my heart before I go to bed on how to apologize on someone that Ive talked bad but I feel ashamed of them please Allah clear my heart from all those kind of things
But missing someone cant make me fall asleep
You know what I mean :)
Wasalamualaikum
