Asalamaualaikum
Yes, I am.
Why did you say so me?
Because I always think about my self.
What is it me? Tell me.
It is all about me, I do not know how to respect him.
I am respecting him. Are not I?
I am but sometimes I did not notice that, a small thing that I have done actually causing uncomfortable zone towards him.
Oh I see, so what now?
Here, listen to my story, right now he is mad at me, well actually he is not mad he just needs some time to be alone because I keep on ceggih.
Yeah yeah, I notice about that me.
Me too, but because of the pampering moment last two days had made me comfort with my throne until I forgot that he hates to see me ceggih and maybe he notices that one moment I will be excessively ceggih and suddenly will cause him trouble.
So this is a lesson that he tried to teach me, is not he?
Yes yes, right now I think and think a lot, some times I feel like he does not love me because he can ignore me like he does right now, but when I think and think again, no! He loves me because we talked a lot about future and the way he treated me before, how he taught me about anything, he wants me to be more matured like he said before who is going to take care of house if I keep on ceggih, I must be alert on everything that is important, if it is not important at all just ignore it, so I will be like damn he loves me so much.
Are you sure me?
Yes I am sure! Exactly! He keeps my childhood photo and he keeps on saying that I looked cute with that smile even though everyone hated my smile when I was that kid, he accompanies me to pet shop, willing to drive and brought me home, he always said that I am beautiful, he is patience, trying to understand me, care me a lot but some times he does not and I know it is because he is tired with his assignments, and that showed more than a thing that he loves me a lot.
Well I see, then?
Then some times I always think about my self, yes if you notice I always think about him well actually I think about my self more than him, I will do anything for him to make him always be by my side but you know he is always busy with the assignments, and I keep on bothering him without feeling guilty, I feel the guilt but hmm yeah, I am trying to control it, I mean bugging him but only God knows how hard to control it.
What is the causing of this argument?
Well it is my fault who do not know how to mind my words but that time I was so angry because of some one took a box of water that I am selling on the 9th floor without paying it, I left it not more than half an hour, I am so sad, depressed, frustrated, and angry, then I text him "swine", i did not mean it to him, but he just bye and does not want to talk to me anymore. We just talked about this in our last conversation, "To become a wife and a mother you must to take care from above to the bottom of yours everything, avoid being childish and ceggih". Yeah it is true, I learnt from this lessons, I am sorry, I will not use any harsh words anymore with every one.
Who is fault right now?
Me.
Well me, so what am I going to do now?
This is what am I doing right now, explanation, this is the explanation that I hope he will understand that iI am sorry for using harsh words, no more harsh words after this, I am so sorry, I know you hate to hear harsh words that get out from my mouth, I was so mad that time, I will be more patience after this, I know you are tired of driving around searching for these stuffs to sell, you are putting so much efforts on this but you can be more patience than me, so why cant I be patience to get through this? I know I can! So I am so sorry.
So the lessons learnt, I know it is my fault, so I think he will consider it.
Walaikumusalam
