Asalamualaikum.
This is saddening, someone that we love hate us. Disastrous, that feeling is killing me a bit by bit. It's like I can't take this no more but I know he hates to see me weak, he wants me to stay strong. I'm strong, I can push ups crunches and jogs in one time. Haha, crazy Ipah is crazy actually. I don't know what should I do now. I'm sad but I just have to wait until he wants to reach me back. I'm scared that one day he'll leave me like I don't want you anymore just go. Where should I go sunshine? No more sun, well the moon won't be brighten the night anymore.
Talking about the moon, I always look at the moon and wondering does he misses me like I miss him? Doesn't he feels what I feel inside right now? When will you reach me again? Are you waiting for my call? Text? I don't know I just confuzzled right now. I wanted to text you or call you but I guess I'll be disturbing you like you'll hate me again and again, seriously do you hate me? I want to know just don't leave me hanging because we're already engaged. I'm yours and you're mine, we both felt the same I guess, always guessing can make your heart pounding and THIS IS KILLING ME. Aren't this kind of things killing you honey? I hope you miss me like I miss you, how I wish I can see you missing me right now. But like you care, maybe you aren't missing me. Poor Ipah, poor him, poor our life. Safiyah, I don't know either your abah is still with me or not. I don't know either we can still have you in the future or not.
And I don't even know either I'm still in your abah's heart or not. If your abah can't love me anymore, it's okay I'll wait for him until he's ready and come and get me. I can't move on so I'll just wait, I don't care how many bad things you've done to me and I also used to do bad things on you, don't worry I'll be sticking on you forever. I don't want anyone else, I want you only you honey. You always said that I'm crazy, yes I'm crazy on you and I don't care what will people say about me, all I know is you're and you'll always be my sexy chocolate muffin man honey. I'm sorry for everything that I've done, and I haven't occurred yet honey.
WITHOUT THE SUN THE MOON WON'T BRIGHT. If I'm the moon so you'll be the sun that can shine my day. XOXO
(YES I SHOULD WAIT!)
Wasalamualaikum.
